We can gain insight thru reading the Scripture and prayer, but no one knows the complete mind of God.
I don't know why I have my beautiful little FireGirl, while others cannot have children.
I don't know why I have a beautiful healthy baby, while other children suffer.
I don't know why idiotic, abusive, people can have child after child, while some of my loved ones, who I think would make awesome parents, can't have children at all.
I don't know why some people are struck by illness or injury or other trauma or tragedy, and others aren't.
And I certainly don't understand it either.
Because I don't know the mind of God.
But I do believe that He has a reason. A reason that is far beyond our understanding. Answers to these questions that we have, that we might not discover for years. Or even ever. But He is in control, and I trust that He knows what He is doing.
Which is good, because half the time I don't have a clue what I'm doing.
I honestly don't understand how those who don't believe in God, or in any other "higher power", function, how they get thru life.
Honestly, if I didn't have my faith in God, I probably would have committed suicide a long time ago. Seriously. Because if none of this means anything, if all of the tragedy, and sickness, and pain, and bad stuff in the world... if there isn't really a higher calling for all of it... then who the heck would want to stay here? and why? If we serve no other purpose than to live our lives and then turn to dust, well then... why go thru all the bad stuff? why witness all the tragedy? why not end it all right now?
I wonder this a lot. How people who have no faith in any sort of higher power go thru life. How they get thru the tough stuff. What they think of all the horrible injustices in the world.
Because when it all makes no sense, when it all seems too much to bear, too much to even see... I cling to my Father. I know that even when I don't see His presence, even when I don't feel His touch... He's there. He's watching over me, over all of us. He loves us. Even when it seems like maybe He doesn't, I know that He does. And I cling to that. I hold to that. And I stop squirming and let Him hold me.
Thank you Jesus.
"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." -- Romans 8:28
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me." -- Psalm 23:4
"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding." -- Proverbs 3:5
"Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee -- Deuteronomy 31:6
"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." -- Matthew 11:28-30
"But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you. To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen." -- I Peter 5:10-11
"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." -- Isaiah 40:31