"Feeling Invisible has Brought out Very Strange Feelings of Jealousy"

"Did it happen because me, the real me, the full me, just isn't good enough to be seen anymore? Am I no longer attractive, or fun, or even worth listening to? Feeling invisible has brought out very strange feelings of jealousy. I feel a little desperate to convince myself that I really do exist in the really am a part of all that is going on around me, even when it feels as if I'm not... if Michael can't see me, then I don't want him to be able to "see" anyone else. If I have to suffer from his blindness, I don't want to hear about some woman at work who doesn't."
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Yep. Jealous. For me it's not even women. I wish FireMan heard me like he hears his coworkers. I wish he wanted to do things for me like he wants to do for Water Rescue. I wish he put as much weight on how I feel as he does on how his mom feels.

Some days it feels as if I am the most insignificant, invisible, person in his life.